Pizza Hut Meetup and Make-Up

Today, I was invited to go to Pizza Hut with some of the members of a local Heroclix group. I tentatively accepted. I mean, even though I’ve decided not to let the number on the scale dictate how much fun I should have, change was still hard. After bathing, I slipped on my favorite jeans and was about to tug on an old t-shirt when I stopped. If I was going to have fun tonight, I needed to feel good about myself.

Now, I admit, it’s not easy to feel good when you are over two hundred pounds. Every time I stand in front of the mirror, I don’t see a person. I see a belly, a huge belly with folds and dimples. I don’t see two arms. I see two sacks of flours attached to my shoulders. I see a layer of fat tucked under my chin hiding the true length of my neck. Today, the mirror reflected that same image.

But then a small voice, which sounded eerily like my mom, said, “If you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say anything at all.” I smiled. Again, Mom was right. It’s easy to keep mean thoughts about others inside (most of the time), but when thinking about ourselves, we could critique until the cows come home, and then some. Instead of focusing on what’s “wrong,” we should focus on what’s right. I’ve always loved my hair and eyes, so I straightened my hair and applied eyeshadow to my eyelids. After the make-up, I felt so good about my appearance that I traded the t-shirt for a long-sleeve blouse and a chunky necklace. Here’s the end result:

And guess what? I had fun! I got to geek it up and feel sexy at the same time. Progress, indeed. The Beatles had it right: All we need really is love, for our fellow man and for ourselves.

By the way, I don’t have two different colored eyes. I have two contacts that don’t match, but that’s all that was left in the boxes, so, until I see the optometrist at the end of the month, I’m stuck with these. ๐Ÿ™‚

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3 responses to “Pizza Hut Meetup and Make-Up

  • Kim

    Keep those positive thoughts! I do the same thing. I always find the flaws or avoid mirrors altogether. I now try to focus on what I love about me not what I want to change. Good Luck!

  • 40 Pounds By June

    Ha! The contacts made me laugh – use them as a conversational starter: “In case you’re wondering, I don’t have two different color eyes, they are both a beautiful (insert color here) but I just need a new contact lense.” See? Pointing out YOUR beauty shows confidence, the lenses show a kooky fun side AND you can laugh at yourself. BTW – Mom knows best ๐Ÿ™‚

  • cheeseadditional

    @Kim: Good for you! Why did it take me so long to figure this out? LOL Good luck on your fitness challenge. I just subscribed, and I’m looking forward to “keeping tabs” on you.

    @40 Pounds by June: Oh, these contact lenses have given a couple of guys opportunities to create conversation starters. Not that it helps them, as I’m married. LOL You’re the first person to give me a kooky side, and, as a writer, I can think of no better compliment! I love it! ๐Ÿ˜€

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